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Thought provoking. Well worth the read

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Sarah(my dark genius alchemist)the juxtapositions are clear.Covid is and has been an agent of “contagions and divides”-a Darwinian paranoia scope that has fractured trust in other people and government already worthy of distrust.I caught Covid in prison and was sent to a prison just for the Covid infected.I watched people die while refusing to stop taking drugs officers still poured in.The prison was a sick zombie camp with little health care.When I caught Covid I was forced into a solitary confinement camera cell with the light on all day.Battling a 102 fever and a half cracked winter window,I spent 4 days there before they moved me into an open cube area of people passing out,puking,crying and raging.We were shuffled from one unit to another as the death toll and ambulances came daily.The random moves from unit to unit were like a macabre ship of fools show or concentration camp of experimental sorrow and fortitude.I was only supposed to do 14yrs in prison but was already on my second flop for nothing other than punitive torture.G.Whitmore(our governor)never answered mine or my families letters.To me she is just as useless as those parties who whore themselves to evangelicals while they attend hotel parties with prostitutes.They were flopping me with all my programs done and a college degree!How did I transmute it?By recognizing those forces of divides that create distance even from myself.I combated them with an unyielding muse in writing,music,movies(when access was there).These arts are the most human medicine,the most divine part of humanity ready to spark.We’re waiting around to love-we wait around to tell our stories or write that script…yet the great transformative force called death will not yield its approach.We cannot predict in temporal blues when it’s too late.We feel breathe and desire now.Sometimes it takes an antinomian mind to tap into this,but overall it takes a raging love.RISK YOURSELF!Like you said-we have to re vitalize our moments by cherishing them the way we would if we were deprived/yearning for them with every fiber of transcendence!This is a micro war first with macro implications.❤️😈🌕🌑

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